Only in the dark

Like this song "Only in the dark" by Juwita Suwito.
Meaningful lyrics and beautiful voice.

ONLY IN THE DARK

The raindrops fall incessantly
Each I think the sky's letting up
Thre seems to be another cloud
Bringing the dark
Coming right at me

So often I can't see the road ahead
The blinding headlights loom then go out again
But suddenly I find that I don't need to strife
'Cause I realize I am rising, I'm flying and....

CHORUS
Only in the dark when I can't seem to see
I learn to hear Your whisper that's been guiding me
Reach out for the hand that bears the light
So my step is right
Only in the dark



Now each day's a step that's lighted up
And the questions asked won't make me stop
'Cause I know no matter how I feel
That this is real
And I'm slowly getting to a place where it's not...

BRIDGE
So let the shadows come
And let me run into Your arms where
I can feel the warmth of Your touch - unmistakable
Leading me on, loving me on, turning me on

Though now it seems to be that...

From why to how?

Why is perhaps the questions that is asked most often in my life and maybe in most people's life too. Why this, why that? Haha. Especially when something bad happen, question like 'Why me?, Why now?,Why this happen' will popped out in my heart. Endless whys and no answers!!

Instead of asking why, perhaps it is time to ask How. 'How can i deal with this? How to make things better?' Hmm, it will be hard to change it but hopefully i can do it, slowly. Hopefully i can view things in a different and better way. Haha. Keep trying!!

Dry and empty...

The title kinda shows what this post will be about. Been feeling very empty inside. What should I do? Who can understand me? Go to church every week but still feel so lost and confused. God, help me please. Give me strength. Dont even know what to write here. Speechless.....

Arggh!! Epidermis peeling off again!!

Oh no, the epidermis of my fingers is peeling off again!! Arghs, actually it already recover after applying cream but now my thumb's skin is coming out again. Doctor said is allergy to soap but even my feet's skin is peeling off. So scared, it will deteriorate and affect all of my fingers like last time. A month ago, the skin of my whole hand peel off and even just touching anything is also painful. :( Here is how my finger looks now: 

skin beginning to peel, still not so bad

And below is how my hands looked like a month ago. Took pictures and wanted to write about it last time but forgot about it. Haha.  Hope it wont peel off till like that again!

Looks a bit scary, huh.

Off the lights please!! Earth Hour

We can do something to save out earth. Turn your lights off at 8.30pm on 27 March. I still remember last year in INTI college, i did turned my room lights off during Earth Hour time. Since is all dark in my room, i just sleep in that one hour. But in the end, didnt manage to sleep also. After one hour, switch my lights back on and continue to do my stuffs. In that darkness, I looked out of my room window to the opposite hostel block and notice that quite a number of rooms are also dark. Haha. Good, good. Thinking back about it now, I was happy that I was part of the Earth Hour. At least can help to save the earth. But perhaps more important is in out everyday life, we turn off the lights, fans, televisyen and other electrical appliances when we do not use it. I believe by doing that we have a bigger impact in saving the earth, in everyday live and not just during Earth Hour!

Why my MSN cant sign in!!

Haih, dono why my MSN cant sign in. Keep appearing contact list not available and then cant sign in. Already update to the latest version of live messenger but still the same. Even uninstall and reinstall it also cant help. Lazy to use the web version or meebo. Lol.

Anyway, last weekend was a tiring week for me. Went swimming and in the end, whole body so tired cos i didnt swim for at least 7 years already. Imagine that. Lol. Just swim one lap already feel tired, especially if swim freestyle. After swimming, ears blocked pula cos water went in. Haha. Didnt swim many laps, but the next day, hands, shoulder and legs aching. Lol. Next time, will start swim slowly after long time didnt swim. 

What! Celcom Broadband Basic Youth not available?

Went to Celcom branch here end of last month to find out more about the Celcom Broadband Basic Youth which is cheaper than the normal basic plan but been told that it is not available. Other plans are available except this youth plan. When i ask why not available because the advertisement says that this promotion is valid till 31 March, the staff just say it is unavailable. What is this. It in the advertisement but unavailable. If like this, no need to advertise la. So will find out more about Digi and Maxis broadband. 

Format laptop :(

Today , just formatted my old laptop which mum use for watching movies and dramas. The PC is about 5 years already but is still good though is slow cause many files and programs inside. Window XP running on 512 RAM. Formatting is easy but the difficult part is finding space to save all the files.

Although the PC total hard disk 40GB now seems small but my external hdd also not enough space to save it. Many dramas, songs, vidoes, etc inside. Somehow, luckily manage delete some stuff from the external hdd and the old PC. Thanks to some empty space inside my pendrive too. But also have to sort out all the files and delete those unnecessary stuff later. Haha. PC CPU usage is running 100% all the time and is very slow. Wanna wacth movie also cant cos always jam. Very lag. Found out it is cause by svchost but cant solve it also after searching information online. So, decided to format it. After all. the PC also need to be formatted sooner or later.

Now, installing all the drivers. It is much faster now :). Hopefully today can finish install all the programs but don't think so cause at night will go visiting. So many visiting. Eat again. Haha. Btw, came to know that Hotlink YouthClub SMS rate to different network will increase to 6 sen from 19 March. Though is still cheaper than the normal plan but that will increase my expenses. Really hope to get a job soon. Lol. Keep finding.

Still in CNY mood

It's already one week pass Chinese New Year but i am still in CNY mood. Ate a lot. Sure gain weight already. Haha. Lots of eating but also lots of cleaning the house. How nice if i have a massage chair to relax after doing housework. Weather nowadays is so hot. Must on the fan full speed. Heard the dry spell will be till March. Luckily my hair is short. If not, even hotter.

CNY gift box containing food especially tidbits.

Happy Chinese New Year

Gong Xi Fa Cai. Time flies. So fast , we are in the first few days of the 15 days CNY. Lol. Didnt go back hometown  this year but went visiting first time in Btu. Last year, we were not here. Had a nice reunion dinner steamboat. Haha. Ate till so full.

Then, second day of CNY , went to Miri and Brunei. Just came back today. I think everytime, during CNY is always very hot. Make visiting and traveling more tiring. So far, collected a few ang pows. Is very little compare to the ang pows that i have if go back to hometown. Anyway , not yet Chap Goh Meh, so still got chance to collect more ang pows. Haha, very tired today after about 3 hours of journey in car and then have to vacuuming the car almost immediately after reach home. Was sweating all over.  No choice cos dad ask to vacuum it asap. 

May the year of the tiger be a good year. Needs lots of luck:)

Celcom Broadband??

Today, sis saw a promotion by Celcom broadband offering free usb modem but have to subscribe the broadband for a year then only the modem will belong to you. She plan to get it cause it is mobile means can use anywhere within the coverage. So, i search online to compare between Maxis and Celcom. Seems like both broadband also have complaints from customers about the speed and coverage. Still undecided will subscribe which one. Will find out more when free. Haha

Day of planes

This post is actually about yesterday's blog but I was too tired and sleepy to write yesterday. Hmm, why i called it Day of planes. Haha, simply because yesterday, seems like almost my whole day involve plane. First, i reach KL sentral at about 7.20am, check in there, just realise that we have to buy ERL tickets to use the MAS check in. After checking in , i walk around KL sentral for a while since my flight is 11.35am, still early. 

Reach KLIA about 9am , wondering what to do. So just walk around, looking for chocolate. Was surprises that the chocolate in airport is so much more expensive when it is suppose to be tax free. Ended up didnt buy any.

Then, at nite, i watch Flighplan (yea not new movie but is very nice). 

Have to sleep now, 2mr have to wake up early. Will continue this post 2mr

Missing something

hmm, feel like something is missing here. hmm, what is it? thinking back, around this time last year, i was at a place that i wanted to be. too bad , this time i cant go there. lol. today off cos trainer is on leave. So , got time to rest and study. Many lessons i dont understand, so lots of catch up to do. It took me so long to just understand one chapter. 1 day is not enough!! tomorrow will be another full day of lessons, in front of the computer, configuring, listening. Man, information overload. The worst thing is if u are stuck at a chapter, the latter chapter will be stuck too. Haih, so blur.. There's a lot of doubt. Grant me wisdom and concentration, God.  Hope i can do something useful while waiting for transport after class too. Really hope i can survive till the end. 2 more weeks + left. Be strong.....

silence is golden?? Not for me

Silence is golden. that's the phrase that i sometimes hear when someone talks to much or need to be quiet. haha. agree that sometimes we need to be silent but donno why i am always silent. i wonder what people normally talk about everyday? movies, news, hobbies, gossip? lol. yea, i admit i am the very quiet and reserved type. the problem is i dont have ideas to talk. Even if i have, it will be a short conversation - eventually the conversation will die off itself. haih. boring. lol

What else can i say? hobbies? Badminton- honestly i no longer have much interest in it. yea, lost that long passion that i had since i was small. It happens sometimes but in the end, i will automatically have the passion again. haha. but this time is different, dont know why. Ops, off topic, suppose to talk about hobbies. hmm , if 2 people have the same hobbies, it is easy to click rite? unfortunately , hard to find people with same hobbies. haha. and also my passion for hobbies is fading. lol

hey, talk something please, dont be so quiet. yea, must remind myself about it. burp- just ate durian, better dont talk for now. haha. so , silence is golden for now. lol, dono what i am writing also.haha

More sushi pics

dono why the other pics didnt appear in the previous post.dono why the other pics didnt appear in the previous post. so here it is: so here it is:

sushi at Escapade, Brunei

Went to eat sushi at Escapade, Kuala Belait last month when we were in Miri. The sushi size is so big, almost double the normal sushi in Malaysia. Can see it in the pics:

bad hair day

went to cut my hair yesterday cos weather is very hot and i always sweat a lot. i ask the hairdresser to cut the same pattern n cut short but ended up like didnt cut. lol. my fringes is still long though i already ask him to cut it short a few times. maybe next time must bring picture of hair pattern. haha.

so fast Christmas already over and 2010 is coming. first time Christmas i felt so busy till no Christmas mood. help to print and photocopy XMAS bulletin which is a bit different from the normal bulletin cos using different paper. the paper always got stuck in the photocopy machine. have to put only 1 paper then it wont stuck. lol. luckily, my sis came and help me in the end.

2 more days to 2010. this time new year day, will be hitting the road to sibu. will come up with new year resolution included repeated ones. haha. hopefully, it will be accomplished. happy 2010

Miri and Brunei trip

Just got back from Miri and Brunei on Monday and got sick. actually a day before going , i already got sore throat. It got worse through all the road traveling and aircond room. now I am having flu and coughing. really hope that the old cycle of allergy cough wont repeat itself.Went to Miri for mum's finger operation and since Brunei is quite near, we went there to try the sushi.Headache-head feeling very heavy now. will continue next time

Cough cough cough

Have been coughing for the past few weeks.in fact already cough 1 month plus. recover already but cough again. lol. so hard to get to sleep with the cough.now, my bones also pain. haih, heal me pls , God. sick of getting sick. haha. it's been long time since my last post. haha, lazy to write. hmm, just hope that i will be healthy again asap. felt so old d. haha. anyway , 2moro will be a better day :)

mini olympics :)